Well.......I've been quite naughty and honestly before I tell you I have never felt the urge to do this before! I'm married (10yrs) 38 and have two kids, been faithful all the time. But whilst on holiday with family, I met a divorced guy 10 years older than me, holidaying with just his son. He wasn't particularly amazing looking, but clearly very bright, active and competative and a real mans man! He had a body to die for. Anyway i felt instantly drawn to him, he had such a presence about him! And our kids got on and occasionally we would all chat including hubby, but they both seemed to compete with each other all the time which was a little odd. I felt he flirted with me a bit when hubby wasn't around and when hubby was this guy seemed to direct all his conversations towards me and on our last night after dinner I so desperately wanted to exchange numbers ( I know) but couldn't for obvious reason. Next day before we were about to go to the room to get ready to leave, hubby took kids to kids club and I was left alone by the pool. This guy got up after hubby had gone, to say goodbye to me ( I found it odd he didn't say bye to hubby and the kids and he had been chatting to hubby all holiday on and off too) it was awkward and I so badly missd the moment, I'm sure he felt chemistry too but clearly didn't want to say anything as he wasn't sure If I wanted to mention anything or at least that was my perception of things. When I got back, I managed to get in contact with him, sent him two messages via a popular social network and got no response checked with the network people who said they had been sent but not read and that he could see who they were from. I presumed he had ignored them and tbh forgot about him. Now TWO weeks later and I've had a response!! Arggghhh. I feel very embarrassed as I was so open about how I found him so hot, how I'm married and he has a busy life etc and how I still think we should meet up, and when I can meet up! Gulp! I KNOW, I KNOW, and anyway he has responded with "Gosh, what can I say" and that's it!!!?? Does that mean he is surprised I felt that way or surprised at my propersition? I know I'm an attractive women (without sounding a prat) I just felt such a strong urge to contact him. I've never done anything like this before even when single! Can't get my head around it.
I have no idea what I am doing and I know you are all going to be calling me a bitch but let's face it I don't want to go through all my marriage details with you all but I can say he hasn't been great and I've put up with a awful lot and at some point when you know divorce cant happen we have even spoke about it and agreed and when it suddenly hits you that you know you don't fancy your man much anymore, you need a release!! And that is all I want from this guy a release! Why do I feel so desperate to do this! I actually feel I'm owed some fun with someone else! I want the thrill of the attention from another man so badly. :-(