Of course he disagreed with me, said I'm overreacting. I told him that's the most cliched thing he could have said.
I don't know, maybe I'm wrong, but I feel like it's a sneaking suspicion that's been creeping up on me for months and months and last night... it just hit me. I feel like I've just sleepwalked into a car crash.
He's always drunk a lot more than me, my parents are tee total and I barely drink at all, whereas he comes from a family where they do seem to drink a lot (but I've always told myself this must come from my pretty well non drinker viewpoint, perhaps I'm naive), they "appreciate" a lot of wine, whisky, etc.
He holds down a very responsible job and doesn't drink at all during the day, but in the evening, once the baby is in bed, he'll always drink the best part of a bottle of wine, he drinks whisky like it's apple juice.
He started hiding it from me too. The night before last I accidentally drank from his can of coke and not mine and got a whacking hit of whisky in the coke. Until that point I'd had no idea there was any alcohol in the house. Last night I was lying in bed with a sneaking suspicion and went downstairs to check the kitchen cupboard, there was a big bottle of whisky with only a tiny bit left at the bottom, an empty tumbler left on the dining table that smelt of booze.
Other things that made me suspect: he slurs his words sometimes in the evening, when I ask him if he's been drinking he tells me, no, he's just tired. Last night I asked him if he'd been drinking (before found the booze), because I smelt whisky on his breath. He told me no.
When I confronted him, he said he knows he drinks a lot and that he knows he needs to stop doing that and he hides it from me because he knows I worry. But that he's not an alcoholic and I'm working myself up into a state over nothing really. I told him he has to completely stop drinking. He agreed.
So tell me, lovely ladies of mumsnet. Am I overreacting or am I right? (I feel I know what the answer is here, but I still need to hear it) Where do I go from here? Anyone had a similar experience?
I still feel shell shocked really, I can't stop crying, I love him so much words can't express but I can't let this go on, can I.