feeling crappy and confused

[puds11isNAUGHTYnotNAICE]

I'm really confused. I keep swinging from feeling fine to feeling desperately sad. It's effecting my work and I don't know what to do about it.

I think the sadness comes from feeling alone. I don't have any close friends who really know who I am. People only seem to want to spend time with me when they have nothing better to do. My 'best friend' has recently disappeared as he has a new gf, I never seem to get invited to anything and despite trying to 'put myself out there' in a dating sense, I'm getting no where. I went on one date and the guy didn't show up.

My confidence is shot to shit and I'm not working effectively.

I'm going home to visit family soon and I'm dreading the questions of what have I been up too/am I seeing anyone. All I do is go to work then come home and sit by myself.

I feel pathetic.

Urgh, how depressing.

You're not alone. I have people I 'know', but true friends are very thin on the ground (by that I mean I have none!).

I'm agoraphobic, so getting out is a huge problem and people don't bother asking me anywhere because they know I can't.

I have huge confidence issues and guilt issues because I feel hugely sorry for my children.

I am married, but he's not very good at this whole conversation lark and I feel completely on my own pretty much all of the time.

Do you have any hobbies/interests? You could join a group. If I could leave my house for longer that 20 mins, I would learn to dance, join an amateur dramatics group, do yoga, take the children to the park, go to the theatre, cinema....so many things.

Don't feel pathetic, but think about what you could do. I know it's easier said than done

Thank you Dola I'm very lucky in that my main hobby/interest is my job, however it does mean that I don't tend to meet a lot of new people, and when I do it's in a work capacity, not a friend one if you know what I mean. Other than that I really enjoy reading which is a fairly solo affair

I would like to go to a fitness class or something, but between being a single mum and working two jobs I just don't have the money or time right now. I know I'll feel better soon, I just have incredibly low days where everything seems a lot worse than it is.

It must be really difficult to maintain friendships when you suffer from agoraphobia, I sympathise.