I am very upset about this. Here is why I don't think I love my dh anymore. I have scizoaffective disorder (episodes of bipolar one and episodes of scizophrenia) I had dc3 a while ago and as I choose to go med free during pregnancy I started a manic episode the January before last. It lasted till about July then I suddenly became psychotically depressed. That lasted till the beginning of this July when my meds were switched and I became stable.
Since my episode has ended I feel like a different person like it changed me. It feels like dh has become more of a carer than a husband. He is always questioning where I am going what I am doing. I feel so trapped. The other day he went off on one because I decided to go to tesco in the evening as the dc are out of school.
I can't stand him touching me I really can't I just feel like the person I was before this episode has died. I can't leave him as I am financially and emotionally and physically dependant on him. I have three dc no qualifications two with sn. I also feel bad you see dh mother was a violent alcoholic and attacked me physically one night so dh cut contact. When he did this his whole family cut contact. So if I leave he has no one.
I feel so trapped.