I hope someone can come and give me some words of wisdom as I'm feeling really down at the moment. Came out if an abusive relationship six years ago which was both mentally and physically abusive. My ex husband was albanian and even though we were only together just over five years the relationship scarred me for a long time. He eventually left me for another woman while I was pregnant so the only good thing to come out of that was my dd. had been single since then and about four months ago I met a great guy on pof. He restored my faith in men was kind,caring and the opposite of my ex. Improved my self esteem and made me happy which I hadn't felt in a long time. Then three weeks ago started acting strange and distant and then out of the blue said he wasn't sure about us and was taking a 2 week break to decide what he wanted. Went no contact for the 2 weeks and then I contacted him last week to find out what happened only to be dumped by text as he's not ready for a relationship or so he says.
I feel at 35 I have hardly had any relationships and it struck me just how much of my adult life I have spent alone. I do keep busy but just feel like a failure when it comes to men and relationships. Really thought I'd picked a good one but I always seem to get dumped or as I strongly suspect left for another woman and it makes me feel not good enough.
Not sure why I'm writing this just feels better to put it all down. Everyone else seems to maintain long term relationships but my relationship history is painfully small.