I hope I'm posting in the right place.
We met years ago and I fell pregnant straight away. We didn't know each other at all before we slept together in fact we met on the internet. Yes I know how foolish that was! So basically I continued with the pregnancy and we started a relationship and I would see him once a week. The relationship was very volatile. We hated each other but thought we should stay together for the baby. Fast forward a couple of years of only seeing him once or twice a week and I found out he was cheating on me.
The relationship ended there and then and he continued to see our child once a fortnight.
He went on to have a baby with the OW (he didn't see our child from age 4) and I had a baby by my then husband. My marriage ended in awful circumstances when my kids were 7 and 3.
I contacted him as it involved his child and we ended up chatting for hours and he came to see me. A few months later we decided to make a go of things and a year or so later we married.
He's hardly ever been honest with me. I find out that he's lied to me on numerous occasions and I'm at the stage now where I don't trust him due to the million lies he has told me and the stuff he has kept from me and the love I had for him is no longer there.
He's due home from holiday with our child and his child next week and I'm dreading it. I've loved him not being here. I've missed my child like mad though!!
I'm just rambling now but I just need to get this off of my chest. I don't know what to do.