I started seeing man casually almost a year ago... We met once a fortnight and developed into a relationship of sorts. I felt there was a connection and ended up falling for him. He didn't say the same but did make out he felt the same with things he said.... Maybe leading me on, with hindsight...
We had a falling out in February and then met up again in May. The thing is, I really do like him. He's different to anybody I have dated before... (His work and where he lives is a stunning part of the countryside)... and is a widower. He has issues with moving on from his wife who passed away four years ago and is having counselling for that.
I'm a confident person in my career and usually not one for doubting myself etc, but I long for him to contact me... And feel disappointed when he doesn't. He usually messages or emails every day and today he hasn't...
I know I shouldn't get bothered by it, but I am. I feel I enjoy the time spent with him and the contact, but I do wish I wasn't as bothered about him blowing hot and cold. I do think he's a good bloke, and is working through his issues. We get on really well. He is affectionate and kind and gives me that affection when we meet. I just get the impression I'm way more bothered about him that the other way round.
Not sure what answers I want, and I know it sounds petty, but I just wanted to vent! Lol