Will try and keep this brief. 8 months ago I met the most wonderful man through mutual friends. I had been through a messy divorce 3 years previously and hadn't dated so I was very nervous about jumping in again. He has 2 teenage daughters, roughly the same age as my 2 daughters, the girls got on really well and for the first time since my marriage broke up, I felt that a positive future was on the horizon and I was happier than I had been in a long time.
We got on so well. He was going through a divorce and was living in a house he owned before he married his wife, that he used to rent out. We had trips away together, talked about selling our houses once his divorce had gone through and buying somewhere together. He was the most kind, passionate, caring person I have ever met. Last week was a normal week. I'd booked us a surprise trip away to the new forest for the weekend, I had no inkling that anything was wrong. Anyway, Thursday morning he called me and asked if he could come over after work as he wanted to talk to me. I honestly thought he was going to propose. He came over and told me that he had to end our relationship as he was going to give things another go with his wife for his daughters sake. He said he would always love me but his love for his kids was stronger. I asked him to come away for the weekend trip i'd booked at least so we could say goodbye properly. He reluctantly agreed and said he would pick me up on Saturday morning. When I came downstairs on Saturday morning there was an envelope lying on the mat with a note in saying I'm sorry and a cheque for £500 to cover the cost of the trip. I tried to ring him but is number is coming up as unavailable. I went to his house but his neighbour said he moved out on the Friday and told her he was going back to his wife.
I am heartbroken and devastated. I can't eat or sleep. I miss him so so much. I know its early days but I don't think I'll ever get over him. Will this feeling pass? Will it get better?