I don't know why I'm posting, I just feel sad and lonely. I ended my marriage about a year ago. I was desperately unhappy. My ex was completely emotionally unavailable to me and in many ways, being lonely in my marriage was much worse than being lonely, alone, if that makes sense. I was always desperate for a scrap of attention or love, and when it never came, my heart broke a little more each time.
But now, a year on, all I can think is that I'm never going to have a good life again. I have two small children who are shunted off to nursery a lot (as I'm back at uni trying to build a new career; gave up the first one to support husband in his as we moved around a lot for his work). They go to his alternate weekends. He has the cash to do wonderful activities in the time he has with them and generally doesn't have to be the day to day patent who nags them, tells them off etc. I am terrified they will grow up loving him so much more.
I can't imagine anyone will ever want to settle down with me with my two beautiful, but small and demanding, little ones.
I feel so sad. I can't see where I go from here