bipolar boyfriend breaking up?

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Hello I have been with my boyfriend for 10 months, we were so so deeply in love, we spent every day together, he completely swept me off my feet, we were inseparable, i've never been so happy and neither had he, it was so perfect, i had never felt so loved. Occasionally though he would slip into a sad, depressed mood, become very socially anxious and not understanding he was, he also told me that his mum has mild bipolar. Something terrible happened to us 4 months into the relationship but he supported me throughout everything and always loved me. But suddenly last week he broke up with me and said he didn't love me anymore, he didn't feel the same, he was so emotionless and i didn't understand, he then suddenly snapped and said how sorry he was and that he loved me. Then two days ago he broke up with me again over the phone, i am so so heartbroken, i thought i would be with him forever, he even spoke about marriage, this morning he kept ringing me and said he was confused and asked me to come see him, i said he should have some space, but now he told his friend that he was unhappy in relationship and he needs to stay strong, yet he has said nothing to me. I love him so much, and don't understand, if he doesn't love me anymore why is he not telling me it's completely over, please help i am so confused and heartbroken

I have gone through something creepily similar recently. My boyfriend of 11 months began treatment of bipolar disorder a couple months ago. He was severely depressed and suicidal for about 5 months before the treatment. In the past month he's broken up with me 3 times. The first, he had come home from school early and I went to go check on him. He looked completely dead and said he didn't think he could do the relationship anymore. He called me the next day and said that he didn't mean it and that he love me and didn't want to be without me. We took a bit of space after a while and we were doing very well, I had some hope that we were going work out and he might even start improving. After a beautiful Sunday at a concert with him, and another hopeful Monday with him the next day, He stopped talking to me. I called him Tuesday night and I could tell he wasn't feeling anything. He was irritable and he proceeded to go into a 45 minute rant about his complex relationship with his older brother who had been in prison for the past 4 years and was set to get out in less than a week. I knew about his brother but this was the first time my boyfriend had ever been able to tell me anywhere near that much information without hysterically crying. He hung up on me after that. We had plans to hang out saturday night but I didn't hear from him at all on Wednesday or Thursday. On Friday I asked if he wanted to call me so we could talk about Saturday and he seemed unwilling and irritated. He called me and told me he wanted to cancel plans to hang out with a friend on Saturday, when I asked if I could just come along he broke into a rage with me and told me he didn't want to be in the relationship anymore. After trying to calm him down he told me he'd think more about it but he probably would not change his mind. I called him the next day and he said I could come over that night, I asked him on the phone what he was thinking and he said he just couldn't do us anymore. I told him that I didn't understand given that the last time I'd seen him in person we were more than okay. I went over to his house to give him two trash bags of gifts and clothes he had made for me and given me. He didn't have any of my things ready to give me. I ended up being there for 3 hours crying and begging for an explanation or at least for him to take more time to consider, but he just kept asking me leave so he could go hang out with his friend. I told him I knew his brother was coming home the next day and that I knew he was distressed over that but that he needed to wait to make this decision, but he just shook his head. The entire time he was scrolling through Twitter and staring/scowling at me. I left his house and didn't speak to him for a week. I then got a phone call 7 days later from him. He was crying and begging to see me. I met up with him and he cried in my lap and he said he didn't know what to do but he misses me so bad and he wanted to be with me. I told him that we would be able to get back together but he needs space and time to deal with his new diagnosis, medication, and living situation. He agreed. A week later he called me and asked to see me and I went to his house and we got intimate he told me how in love with me he was and how sorry he was and how he wanted to be patient and make this work and he misses me all the time. I saw him a few times after that, the final time I saw him things were okay but he called me after crying and telling me that he didn't understand why things couldn't be the way they were before. I explained to him that we could get to that spot again but we both need time to heal and work on things. He apologized and said he understood. We talked in the days leading up to Sunday. Everything seemed okay, though on Saturday he told me he didn't feel like talking much because his brother had done something to upset him. We texted most of the day sunday and he seemed a little distant but he assured me that he loved me and that he was just upset. I called him on Sunday to see if he wanted to see me and he responded by telling me that he didn't want to be in the relationship anymore. I screamed at him for half an hour and hung up on him. I spent the next few days composing a letter for him to read to him when I went to his house to pick up my sweater he had asked to have to sleep with just days before. When I was on my way over to his house he texted me and told me he was tired and he was going to take a nap and he left the sweater on the porch. I told him that I needed to see him. I waited outside his house for while and his mom came up and talked to me, it was obvious she had no idea what was going on. He came out and couldn't even recognize him. He was skinny and pale and had dark circles under his eyes, I could tell he hadn't been eating or sleeping. He was snappy and irritable. I read my letter to him and he responded with "that's a lot to digest". He then changed his demeanor to one that I didn't recognize. He spoke slowly to me with a slight smile on his face. It creeped me out and I didn't understand what was happening. He told me he wasn't in love with me anymore and he didn't want the relationship and that he already feels a lot better being all by himself. I just told him that I thought he was manic and that he was in the exact spot he was in a few weeks before but he disagreed. I found out from some of his friends that he had told them a very skewed version of what had happened between us in the past month. He told them that I couldn't let him go and he felt bad so he took me back a few times, and though he felt bad for leading me on, the relationship had been dying for a while. Given what actually happened, and the amount of space I gave him, and was trying to convince him to take, and the fact it was him calling me and crying and begging to see me and telling me he was sorry and wanted to make it up to me, his version couldn't have been more false. He had never been one to lie, and I am very afraid for him because I think he genuinely believes what he is telling people. His severe personality change and the fact that his days are "blurring together" also is very alarming. One friend told me they believe he's resorted back to his 14 year old self, a time he routinely reminisced on while we were dating. Today is Saturday, so it's almost been a week, and he's been acting completely happy and carefree, smoking a ton of pot and hanging out with friends. A few people tell me they think he's acting strange and I'm convinced that he is a little delusional right now. Regardless, I know I can't be in a relationship with him with all the things he has yet to cope with, but I know eventually his mania is going end and the depression that follows may be catastrophic. I'm very worried for him and confused as what I should accept as him and as his bipolar.

Good lord, that above story is basically my life.

Met a guy who I was so in love with, we shared a really intense bond and were like best friends. He told me he was the first person he’s ever loved and that I was the perfect woman and he wanted to marry me one day. He was open about his bi polar diagnosis from day one and I was careful to research on how to handle his manic/depressive episodes so I could support him. After a while though the cracks began to appear. He would go on and off his meds which would usually give way for manic spells and bad depressive episodes. He would regularly pick fights with me, saying really hurtful critical things that crossed a line and when I would defend myself it was always a case of “you’re too firey, you can’t take criticism” or telling me I’m emotionally immature. I could never win and it really took his toll on my patience after a while, to a point where i would lash out. He would regularly break up with me then ask for me to come back. One time he fell out with me because I couldn’t attend a family meal, he let himself into my flat, got his stuff and left me a type written break up letter basically saying we shouldn’t be together and can maybe talk in a few weeks. 3 days later he meets me and says he wants me back. I decline and like the above post, say I want us to take it slow so we can be good to one another and get to a good place where we both feel stable to be together. We agree not to date other people and tell each other we will be honest if that becomes something we want to pursue. We begin to see each other regularly, sleep together, he tells me he loves me and wants me back etc. Over 4 months I finally reach a place where I’m happy and want to try again and suddenly he starts being weird and distant. He ignores my texts and tells me he’s fine when he does respond. Eventually after a week of feeling completely thrown off by his distance I ask him if he still wants me. He tells me no and that we’re not compatible. This is literally a week after he had seen me and told me he loves me. I go crazy because I felt stupid that this had happened for like the 3rd time and he cuts me off. A week after not speaking I find out he’s been dating other girls and when I ask if that’s why he cut me off and stopped caring so suddenly, he just gives me short snappy lines like you need to move on, I’m not rehashing our relationship, respect my decision, it’s none of your business, we can never work. I’m utterly heartbroken. I was patient, I gave him space and tried to rebuild our relationship with care and love but it just wasn’t enough for him. He constantly would flip between I love you and I don’t want you. Today it just feels so final though, he point blank said we will never get back together and he doesn’t love me. I feel a fool for waiting it out and trying this hard to not smother him.

Has someone eaten all the paragraphs?

Has someone not noticed that this thread is 5 years old?