There, I've said it. And I can't even be bothered to name change. He's just come back home from a week away and while it was so exhausting with a baby and a toddler by myself, I was so much more relaxed. I'm meant to be tidying but all I can do is sit on the sofa and stare at my screen because his criticism makes me freeze. Often I am so unhappy I don't want to be alive because I see no way out. I don't even know why I'm writing this. I guess I just want to chat to someone.