Just had another blazing row with oh. Been with him for 14 years. Not married coz he is not keen on that. Found out I was pregnant just as we we wer on verge of splitting because he wouldn't propose. Things have been good on the whole since ds was born 6 months ago and we have been getting on with things and planning for the future with our beautiful boy. However, the unfinished business of the past still lingers (for me anyway). He hates his job, is very stressed and works long hours and gets depressed that he can't see his baby when he gets home because baby is asleep by then. I totally understand the frustration but oh takes this out on me and complains if dinner is not on the table as if I have been twiddling my thumbs and painting my nails s all day. V frustrating since I have been flat out since 6 am looking after baby. Am knackerd. Told him I didn't want to be witn him anymore and had blazing row and neighbour s must have heard us, so embarrasing. I try so hard to be understanding but just get grief, although I know he is stressed. However he tends to tAke it out on me and give me a hard time. I had pnd in the early days and am on medication for that, and he was very good to me and caring. But when I am depressed I don't get nasty I just get sad. It hard to look after someone who they are being nasty don't you think? Anyway, sorry to ramble, probably not much that can be done and I think we are over. But helps to write it down.