I've finally hit my limit and around a week ago left my partner when he manipulated his ex GF into collecting a large amount of cocaine and bringing it to our house. His bright idea was that the three of us would have a cocaine fuelled threesome and between the three of us, manage to care for our 6 week old daughter. And just like that, enough was enough. I've endured years of manipulation, emotional abuse, financial abuse and the occasional rape. I've had my iron clad facade, as do most people in abusive relationships. He stripped me of who I was and did as he pleased where I did as I was told.
Despite having a tiny baby with me, leaving isn't as traumatic as I'd built it up to be in my head. One task at a time. And most importantly, I was finally honest with people. My friends, our mutual friends, my family, his. People seemed to know something wasn't right but couldn't work out what. I've had such a huge amount of support and he's finally hit rock bottom as he'd expected me to at least continue lying for him so he could act as though I'd left for trivial reasons.
My point anyway, is that once you get over the mental barrier of how big a thing leaving is, it's a huge relief to actually go. I'm putting one foot in front of the other each day and am getting stronger and stronger. I'm no longer scared of opening my mouth.
Much love to any ladies reading who've gotten out and to the ladies still living their own nightmare. Stay strong. Accept help. xx