I've NC for this as I know it's my fault, but would like advice on what next.
Family do this weekend, went along with close family member and her dp. I'm close to these two and have spent a lot of time over the years socialising with them both, weekends, BBQs. I also grew up with her.
I'd had quite a fair bit to drink and while close relative was dancing her dp, who was sat slightly behind me, starting stroking my neck out if the blue.
If some one asked me what I would have done in response before hand , I would have sad I would have slapped him. I'm not keen on him and only tolerate him because of her.
I froze when he started doing it, and for some stupid fucking reason tried to make a joke out of it. I said something along the lines of " hey I don't mind being tickled but if x sees you have had it"
The only thing I can think of if that when I was young I was sexually assaulted twice and tried to brush it off, never reported it. It was a family member and it was easier to deal with it like that than actually say "what the fuck are you doing"
I got up and moved away straight away.
After the do relative asked me to come to hers for a drink, I was that pissed, I must have forgot what her dp had done and went. I only had a glass of wine when there and said I was going.
Now here it gets a bit sketchy for me. I remember her insisting dp walked me home, I remember refusing saying don't be daft loads of times, but she insisted.
We walked down a passage way very close to her house towards mine and then my mind goes totally blank. I remember thinking, " sod, this!" and running across the road to get away from him.
I know he didn't assault me, but I think maybe he tried to stop and kiss me as I have a flash back of his shirt in front of me.
He was shouting me as I ran off.
I got in went bed and only remember half way through the next day when I'd sobered up. With the patchy pieces missing.
My dp absolutely hates him and there would be carnage if I spoke to him about it.
She wouldn't leave him if I told her.
He was up in crown court for attempt assault many years ago but he was found not guilty.
He has been found recently chatting to random women on the internet.
I know it's my own fault for drinking so much. There was a lot of champaign, shots , I went completely overboard.
I'm so annoyed I didn't react the way I should have. I should have called him on it straight away. He is a fucking creep and I practically gave him the green light instead of slapping him, which would have caused a massive scene and ruined the party.
Really don't know what to do about it. I don't know if I'm am going to do anything about it! it sounds really suspect and I don't want to rip the family apart. My family don't like him anyway and are just waiting for an excuse to have a go at him which will only get family relative backing him up again as that's what's she always does .
Just needed to get it of my chest.