My marriage has been awful so long I can barely remember why we ever got together. Day to day life is tolerable because I'm so busy with work and kids and the house. I have a good lifestyle and so I'm can cope with the crap because the kids are so happy.
But I did something stupid... I had a brief emotional and intense affair. He ended it and I am humiliated and so so sad. When I think logically I should have ended it much quicker but I got swept along.
The problem is that I have opened up a world where I briefly felt happy and I think it's highlighted how unhappy I am.
Before anyone roasts me for having an affair I should say I know and I agree. But I don't feel guilty about my husband, I'm sure he is faithful but he is many other things which I think are pretty dire.
I wish I hadn't done it, I feel sad and so embarrassed.
It's amazing how worthless a bad marriage can make you feel and this seems to have made me feel just that little more worthless..
Sorry I'm wallowing in self pity I will slap myself out of it!