Yikes. Having a bad day. After a late morning argument about lack of sex for h (he was lolling around on the bed naked looking at his laptop, probably porn) he got mad at me for not taking the hint that he wanted sex, I asked what he's done to make me want it- answer was that I just should, etc. He proceeded to ask me what I think happened to men who were denied sex for 2 whole weeks (eh?) and said he's look elsewhere, I said fine, and why was it always all about him, and when was the last time he had done something nice for me? I meant that as a question to make him realize how selfish his attitude is. NB it has been a weekend of doing things related to his hobby, he has expected my help and support and I've given it. He countered with: 'its all about you- we had to go look at that house you wanted to see and I told you I didn't want to'. Somehow that tipped me over the edge, it was an open house and I thought he wanted to go too. It was literally 1 hour max out of a weekend that has revolved around him. He started lecturing me about how if I didn't get myself sorted out (he means go to go and get female viagra if that even exists, so I will have more sex drive) he would be compelled to leave me. I said fine, it's over, got my bags and walked out.
Anyway... I drove away but came back. He is stranded without car. Now he's in bed with a stomach ache which is my fault a d I've been told to sit quietly on the sofa. Now wondering wtf to do next...
also- realize I've been told to LTB before but i keep brushing things under the carpet. Plus I'm worried about pushing him into violence, he's controlling and abusive but not violent. I've just started counselling, second session tomorrow, was hoping to get more insight into my own part in this before i exit the relationship...
PS sorry for typos, and am an phone but going to press send just to get a record of this so I don't rearrange it in my head afterwards.