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Is there a support thread for people living with a partner with depression?

19 replies

ItMustBeBedtimeSurely · 24/04/2014 17:54

Hello,

My dh is depressed, and while I am doing my best to support and encourage him, I find it so hard sometimes and don't mind admitting I feel frequently frustrated and occasionally angry. Obviously I can't really share these feelings with him, so was wondering if there is a thread on here for people with partners with depression?

He is not willing to share it with friends in real life (not sure of the wisdom of this, but still...) and I feel like I have nowhere to vent my own feelings about it.

Anyone in a similar situation?

OP posts:
CogitoErgoSometimes · 24/04/2014 18:15

Is your DH in receipt of medical treatment, medication or talking therapies?

ItMustBeBedtimeSurely · 24/04/2014 18:30

Yes, he's having cbt at the moment.

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pointythings · 24/04/2014 22:11

I'll join. My DH is being treated for depression - he is on low dose ADs and is seeing a psychologist as well. His problems are complex - MIL died just over 3 years ago, he dealt with his grief by diving into the bottle and developed an unhealthy relationship with alcohol, then his job became unbearable - incredible workload, shirking colleagues, no management support - and then my parents started to struggle after my dad developed Parkinsons and associated dementia. DH has been more or less adopted by my parents just as I was by his, we were all very close.

It has taken me 2 years to get him to seek help and we have seen improvement in the depression side of it, but it has been hard. I am drained, I always have to be the strong one and I have no-one to vent to either...

We are now dealing with his alcohol issues - he says he needs it to sleep, but we have discovered that white noise/nature sounds MP3s will send him off just as well so that's progress. But I am tired. We both work full time and have two DDs as well. They know a little about what is going on and they see that DH is a lot better now, but I can't let them see how shattered I am.

Flowers to everyone who is a member of the ridiculously strong women's club...

DocDaneeka · 24/04/2014 22:13

< sneaks quietly in to the thread>

Me too.

Sigh

LAK11 · 24/04/2014 22:17

I will join too. Mr DH is severely depressed. He tried a therapist (briefly) he is usually deeply depressed Oct to April/May - yes!!! SAD!!! I bought him a light box but as I have explained he NEEDS TO TURN THE SODDING THING ON! If not there is no way he will know whether it works or not. He runs a business from home so he is a sofa slug for most of the above months and then in Summer he is like a supercharged Ninja. It is extremely wearing. Especially as I also work for the business.

mrshectic · 24/04/2014 22:33

I am on the verge of a complete breakdown due to my husbands, 4/5 year period of severe depression (the last 2 of which he hasn't been able to work we have 2 ds, 7 & 6, and dd 7mths) I really feel confused, alone, exhausted and extremely stressed by it all.

So I too, will be hoping for a glimmer of hope from this thread to maybe help in some way.

Minion100 · 24/04/2014 22:50

I am no longer living with my stbXH but he was / is severely depressed which caused our split (he sadly left his family due to his illness) and I'd be very happy to offer support to anyone going through the same heartbreaking experience.

Some tips I can offer to those going through this would begin with some great books.

"Depression Fallout"
"How you Can Survive When They Are Depressed"
"Depressive Illness, Curse of the Strong"
"Undoing Depression"
"What To Do When Someone You Love Is Depressed"
"Undoing Depression"
"Living With Depression"

Each one of these books helped educate me on his condition (education is the only way to cope IMHO because it all starts to at least make sense) and also gave me a lot of tips that helped him. the first two books are an absolute must, and I would say "Undoing Depression" is a life changer too.

Thanks to all you ladies. It's really, really awful for the sufferer and the loved ones and it manifests in so many diferrent ways.

julieann42 · 24/04/2014 23:00

Having lived most of my marriage with a depressed husband I can say its like being on a roller coaster! No two days are the same! I try to be there for him but have learnt to make sure I have hobbies and interests of my own so I can get away! Keeping a stable home life for my children has also helped me keep sane! The hardest thing I find is working out if some of his actions are those of a depressed person or wether he is just being a miserable old git!

JustPassingThru · 24/04/2014 23:07

DH has suffered for about 6 years (lost count); he is on meds; he receives counselling; he has attempted suicide twice. He is currently coping quite well and I'm hoping he will continue to improve.

Have any of you tried counselling for yourself?
I was lucky because my work paid for a few sessions, and I was doubly lucky because I gelled with the counsellor I saw. She seemed like a wise woman. She taught me that a) DH has to engage with whatever therapy he is undertaking or it won't work; b) that if he is going to kill himself he will do it regardless of anything I do. That second point was important for me to hear.

I stayed sane by disengaging to some extent: my normal mode is trying to fix things, find solutions to problems. But I can't fix his depression, so I had to learn to just be there, sometimes, and say very little.

It also helped to go out from time to time, either to be with others or alone. Sometimes I went out in the car or for a walk on my own, stopped the car or sat on a bench, and just had a cry.

DH hasn't told anyone else, and we've lost friends over his behaviour, but I have one trusted friend who listens and that helps me cope.

Vent here - we know how hard it is and we won't judge.

Danceasifnooneswatching · 24/04/2014 23:11

YepHmmHmm

BikeMum8 · 24/04/2014 23:33

I'm in. DH was diagnosed just over a year ago but looking back, hadn't been well for a year or so before. It's really hard. Some days I just can't do anything right :(

cestlavielife · 25/04/2014 12:42

as minion100. get those books.

do get help for yourself - see a counsellor. you can get free sessions on nhs. speak to your gp about the impact on you. develop strategies for you. get out and see happy people.

cestlavielife · 25/04/2014 12:43

and you have the right to tell whoever you want to get the support for you . it is unfair on you to keep it hidden...and it doesn't help your h either.

Minion100 · 25/04/2014 12:45

The choice to hide the illness is a wrong one as cestlavie says. Both of you need support from friends and family more than you ever have and hiding it as if it is a dirty secret is not the right way to go about healing.

ItMustBeBedtimeSurely · 25/04/2014 13:08

Thank you all so much for replying, I can't say how much it means to hear from other people in this shitty situation. The things some of you are dealing with are horrific.

My dh was only recently diagnosed, although I think he has been depressed for a while. Last year was a stressful one for us (dd2 was born and had health problems, we were given notice on our rented house when she was 4mo, dh changed jobs at about the same time, then we had to move to a new area). I think the combination of everything is what has caused his depression.

He is getting help; one of the biggest steps has been getting him to admit the problem. He went to the gp and signed up for cbt, but all the while was utterly convinced that he didn't have much of a problem, and that if he had depression it was of the very mildest kind. Lately he's coming to terms more with how badly it effects his life, and being less embarrassed about that, which is a definite step forward. I'm very happy about that, because the frustration of knowing it was serious, but that he wasn't seeking help was immense.

He is actually coming round to the idea of talking to others about it, but I'm not pushing it. He feels a lot of shame, but he at least admits this now, and acknowledges it as counter productive, which is a good start.

As for me, I'm treading the fine line between supporting him and disengaging to protect myself. I have my own life, and sometimes all I can do is focus on that. We have good days, when we can talk openly about it, and I feel optimistic about his recovery (today is a good day), and then others when he just can't engage at all, with me, with family life, nothing. I am learning to just back off when that happens, to take care of myself.

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pointythings · 25/04/2014 14:19

It's hard, OP. I do have some support in RL - my managers at work know and are very supportive, we are a close knit team who always have a listening ear for each other and it does help.

I'm glad your DH is now seeking help - my DH has benefited enormously, to the point where most days I have the man I married back. It's worth it. He and I have since had the conversation about how it has affected me and he was shocked - I don't think he is going to let it get that far again.

We only had the alcohol conversation in the past 2 weeks, over 2 sessions, and it's more difficult because he hasn't yet seen how different he is now that he has cut his intake by 70% and found other ways to manage his sleep. So I'm still watching him like a hawk and I feel like a Snooping Sally, but I have no choice. I don't know how long it will be before I trust him around booze again.

igotaway · 25/04/2014 18:51

Can I join? even tho it is my son who suffers and not my DH (I don't have one)
My son is 23 and has been diagnosed with borderline personality disorder, which most doctors seem to be afraid of. They basically don't know what to treat him with, but no matter, he has had enough of their guess work and is now ready to kill himself. He has 'talked' for 2 years to them, he has taken every tablet they have given him, he has given up.
He got so bad that he turned to heroin for a while, just to stop the agony of living, but he has stopped that now.
He has made a plan
He will not live beyond 24 which is in 4 months time
He has tidyied up his life and is ready to go.
How does this effect me?
I don't even know where to start. Watch, wait, listen, talk.
Be back later - crying again, with frustration, anger, sadness, just desperate really.

BeetlebumShesAGun · 25/04/2014 19:07

Hello.

My DP has had it pretty much since I met him but only went and spoke to the GP about 2 and a half years ago. He is on medication but won't go to counselling. Since our DD was born 4.5 months ago he has been fantastic but unfortunately his "trigger" seems to be his family (numerous problems I have posted about before) he is a wonderful person but sometimes when it is bad I wish I could speak to someone.

BeetlebumShesAGun · 25/04/2014 19:09

Also igotaway Thanks for you that sounds awful. Have any of you talked to Samaritans?

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