Sorry this may be in the wrong category but I'm new to this site and this seemed the most relevant category.
The subject heading says it all really. My life was pretty good up until I was 23, when I suddenly developed a mysterious condition. It happened soon after I'd met my now husband, so it put some strain on our relationship in the early days. I was told for years by doctors that my symptoms were psychological and they gave me antidepressants, which didn't help much.
When I was 27 we had our first child, then 5 years after we got married then had our second child. I'm now 36. A couple of years ago I started wondering if my symptoms were neurological, so I told my GP and after a year of various tests and seeing several neurologists I got diagnosed with a rare incurable condition called cervical dystonia. I have worked on and off over the years but find it a struggle because of the constant pain and anxiety I have. My husband is not very sympathetic and is always making digs at me about not working, the house being a mess etc. I love my children but their behaviour seems to be getting worse and worse. I feel like a bad mother and wife, but at the same time I resent my husband. I think if I was mentally and physically stronger we wouldn't be together. I know that I have to take some responsibility for my problems and not just blame everyone else but I feel like I want to escape from life sometimes. Please could I get some feedback on my situation? Thank you.