Just ignore this, I'm rambling and trying to sort my brain out.

[Smilesandpiles]

I've met someone. I wasn't even looking, it wasn't even planned.

I have other plans long term plans and a direction of where I want to be, having someone in my life wasn't part of it, I'm not ready but here he is. Right out of the blue..

I've only met him 3 times and each time it's been the best couple of hours in my life. I want this. I want this so much it hurts..but I feel like I'm going crazy..

I don't even know what I want out of this thread..or even if to bother posting it. FUCK.

When he's around it's like, I don't know, that everything is going to be ok, that there's someone else in my corner fighting with me. He's the first person to make me laugh, I mean properly laugh since my life fell apart nearly 4 years ago. Like I can finally just be myself and he wouldn't mind...it's weird.

I don't want to say anymore incasse I jinx it (yep, I'm THAT bad) but I want to tell everyone about him.

Bollocks...I've had it haven't I? There's no going back is there? FUUUUUUUCCKKKKK.

Am I going mad? Have I finally lost the plot? Am I in danger of making the biggest arse of myself in the history of arse?

I can't cope with this....I can't even contact him, or even dare to....bollocks...

SHITE.

Sorry.

"Life is what happens to you while you're busy making other plans." - John Lennon

I love your post. It totally reminds me of the secret diaries I used to keep.

I hope it works out.

Oooh, good quote. Thanks.

Just chill! Take it as it comes, but good luck

You are in love. It is maddening, infuriating, scary.

It is also wonderful.

But just be careful - what you fall in love with is an ideal, an imprint, a silhouette sometimes. Take a lot of time to see if the man matches the image.

And be happy.

Oh crap, that's just what I was afraid of...and reluctant to admit to myself.

Thank you everyone. I'm just going to see what or indeed IF anything happens but in the meantime concentrate on the plans...they still apply even if nothing comes of this new..er...development.

It happened to me ten months ago. Quite bizarre.

How is it going Linerunner ?

It's an infatuation, not love, if you've met him 3 times. You need to recognise it for what it is, don't bring baggage from the past and be aware what you're feeling can only be superficial at this stage and should be reassessed as you learn more about him.

I expect he's married.

I agree with Linerunner. But keep your wits about you, as Offred says.

As DH's Granny used to say:
'What's for you won't go past you'

So there!

Right, in other words, "Get a grip"...ok THAT I can do.

Thanks.

Everything you have all said I've noted and will remember.

It's going ok, OP, to be honest; but we are both resident parents and have had to be cautious whilst going a bit mad at the same time.

Good luck Linerunner

So why can't you contact him?

Why can't you contact him, or dare to?

Did you meet him on dates or is he oblivious to your feelings?

Its not love, its infatuation by the sound if it. Also, why would he stop your plans for life? Could you be unsure of these plans and looking for a chance to stop them? By subconsciously looking for a way out, perhaps.

Why is there no going back? Going back to what? Its all very mysterious!

Not necessarily 'get a grip' more maybe get things a little more in perspective in your mind...

It's not love if you've met 3 times, you can't possibly know enough about someone to love them after 3 meetings I think but infatuation can be a good sign that love will come. Time and patience will tell really. Things can get messed up by getting carried away so try to reign it in a little, I would advise...