Apologies in advance but I really need to vent some steam. Those of you who have followed my sad story will know that I found out my H was having an affair last February. I decided not to throw into the gutter where he deserved to go but to try and make a go of things. We went to counselling (him under duress) and I told no-one (apart from Mumsnet) and other than sleep with him I tried to make life appear normal. Swine that he is, he refused to finish his relationship with HER (although he insisted that they were only friends). Of course, I eventually (July) discovered they were significantly more than friends and suggested that while his relationship with her was ongoing he should move out.
I continued to offer olive branches, conditional on the total cessation of his relationship with HER right up until January of this year. Reached the end of my endurance and am now petitioning for divorce.
He is acting like a complete arse. He is rude to me, constantly threatens me with a crap lifestyle from now on, says I have no idea how much he really pays for (which given that I do all the household accounts is laughable). I have to brace myself everytime he comes around for comments about the state of the house, my inability to get DS into any state primary schools and anything else he can have a go about. He is insisting that I use my savings to pay the deposit for DS to go to private school because he says he hasn't got the money (he earns 8 times what I earn).
Despite endless goading I force myself not to lose my temper but I intensely dislike him. The most ridiculous thing of all is that he says he doesn't want a divorce and he still loves me - loves his wallet more like. However, everytime he says he still loves me, I question if I am making the right decision. I know I am really but go on girls, tell me it is the best thing for me and my babies - pleeeease!!!