Please go easy with me here. I've NC as I I feel like a right idiot.
I've been single for around 3 years following the end of a 23 year relationship. I won't go into how it ended, but suffice to say I was left in a pretty fragile state. I settled into being single very easily and always felt that I had no need of another man in my life and that things would be best on my own, just me and my dd.
Anyway, I was out with a large group on Saturday and ended up being one of the last two in the taxi on the way home, along with another man I have known for some time. He is separated. During the 10 mins we were in the taxi alone, he made it known that were I to invite him in, he wouldn't say no.
Well, I was a bit like a rabbit in the headlights and didn't know what to do. I sort of waffled on a bit, but have to say that I didn't pull away when he held my hand. It also felt lovely to just sit close to a man, after such a long time. I made my excuses when we reached my house, but the whole thing has left me really confused.
I sounds really innocent written down, but it felt really charged at the time, and I was left feeling quite hot and bothered! I's made me think again about my 'single for ever' plan too.
The thing is, there has been no mention of it since. We had a very brief, but civil, text on Sunday about arrangements for our dds, but nothing else. I'm fighting an urge to contact him to clear the air, but I'm guessing that would be a bad idea?
I can't believe how much I'm acting like a complete teenager over this. Doing anything with this man at the moment would not be a good idea as I think he's having a difficult time and I don't want to end up caught int he crossfire. However, he is a really sweet guy and I will no doubt see him soon, so it will all feel really awkward.
Is contacting him a really bad idea?