Becoming an emotional mess now divorce is underway

[breaking2bad]

My divorce is about to start at my solicitors this week. My ex had an affair, left me, went to her, came back and then said he wasn't sure. 10 months later he asked if we could start spending time together, no fight for me or anything.

Now a year on from our separation I'm ready for the divorce closure, yet I'm now upset. Not for my uncertain future, but the realisation we really aren't getting back together, upset that I didn't mean enough to him to fight for me.

To be honest I'm
Glad he didn't fight for me as I dot think I could trust him and I'm excited for who I may meet, but I just feel sad at how 11 years came to this.

It is sad and you are perfectly normal to feel like this. Give yourself time to feel upset if you need to. In my experience as time goes on there are less upset days, and when there are you recover so much quicker from them too. All part of the process.

I think you are very brave - and I totally understand the excitement for a happier future too.

Thanks Lavendar. Such a rollercoaster of emotions!

I'm still feeling the pain. Wondering what if. Before I started the divorce I was fine, but why is it now I'm getting the wobbles??

you will be up and down like a yoyo - it is grim, you just need to ride out the bad bits and cling on to the good bits when they come. You wouldn't be human if you didn't have sad times when you grieve for what has gone.