It's as if the devil is sitting on my shoulder and making my life hell :)
I've got so much to deal with right now. Ooh, meant to say I've name changed but I'm a long term mumsnetter. I won't go through all my anxieties/problems but the one that's causing me some difficulty and causing more than a couple of sleepless nights is my ex and his complete rejection of our son.
My ex was an emotionally abusive man. I instigated the split because I knew things would never change and I didn't love him. We didn't fully disconnect for years, partly because I wanted my child to have a relationship with his dad, however things became too difficult and I cut ties. He them cut ties with our son but maintained a small number of hours once a week. 4 weeks ago he just didn't show to collect our son and hasn't been on contact since. My son seems absolutely fine but I'm just flabbergasted that a man who has had constant contact with his child for 11 years could just go. No notice, no contact, nothing! He has my number and he lives 10 minute drive away. I just don't get it.