so i lost my temper at the git

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now he is downstairs telling my parents about the pain and anguish i cause everybody.
if i am as bad as he makes out, then what the hell is he doing still married to me? every little thing his family have made out i have done wrong , he is going on and on about. wtf?

i wish i could have some sort of a personality transplant. one in which i wouldnt lose my temper at his idiocy. and in which i could be a cold hard superbitch who really was as calculating and capable of an iron will whereby i didnt feel anything. the way they all think i am.
crying is easy.
so what i f i yelled at him. i had good cause to do so. and i know that the way i yelled at him was not the most mature of things to do. as my sister rightly said, i was making a fool of myself. why do my family now have to suffer for this?
git igt git

hey.just try to calm down a bit.....i whacked my hub years ago and i ve thrown pizza at him and plates.we all do mad stuff sometimes..u r not perfect.what exactly has happened
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thanks for your message of support lis. whats happened ? im not sure myself either. just very upset.ive had a long chat with my mom, nad it appears they are not stressed the way i thought they would be. at least there is that.
git is just a git.
he had been going uon and on at me about not having any money and being made to spend money on this holiday we all went on. i had told him again and again that noone was making him spend any and he didnt need to spend a penny if he didnt want to. i lost my temper at him in front of my family about his stinginess. what happened today was that my parents tried to give him some money, after doing the expenses for th trip and adding it all up, and dividing etc which he refused to take. he doesnt like to be seen as anything less than a generous person. which he is, except when it comes to me. he has contrl issues then.
git git git.

my hub used to give me £2 a day to spend cos we were so skint!!!!!!!and i had a little bot by then!!we used to spend £20 a week on shopping for all 3 of us!!!!!he hated me having any money.i didnt have a bank account or nothing.it was all cos he was the one who earned the money so i couldnt spend it!i still dont work but i do spend it now!!!i have access to all the accounts and credit cards etc.i just put my foot down.as he started earing more money i demande to see more of it!if u have it to spare u should be able to spend it.if u dont then he is still wise to be cautious.u will sort him out.tell him how u feel...not ....what u think.try it and see.xx

little boy i mean ....not bot he he he