Things are a bit of a mess!!!
Been with my DP 2 years, don't live together and I have 3 DC's from previous marriage!
Things started going tits up in the summer, found some messaging between him and a ex (100% was just messages nothing else and was more him than her) and also his drinking started effecting things when he seem to spend the whole summer sat in my garden getting lashed while I went out cleaning other people's houses everyday to support my kids!
So get to now and I'm nearly 9 weeks pregnant, huge shock!!! When I first told him I was pregnant straight away said he didn't want it, after a week of hell and pressuring me (all the usual maybe we could get married then try for baby in few years etc) he told me if I kept baby he would have nothing to do with it and it would be the end of us! I made the decision to keep the baby and do it alone with my 3dc based 100% on the fact that I was prepared to do it alone!
24 hours later he is back saying of course he would not just have nothing to do with his child and basically seems to half heartily be coming to terms with it and now says he is quite excited etc!
Thing is thing were going wrong before now there just bloody awful!! I just want him out my life, I have lost all respect for how he has behaved over my pregnancy and I the fact he messaged his ex begging to meet up and his drinking has caused major problems and i dread him coming here at the weekends because I know he is going to stand in the kitchen sinking bottles of wine and expect me to stand there with him while he moans come 7pm on a Friday night as to why the kids are not having a early night!!!!
He is a shit dad to the one son he has, a shit role model for my children! We deserve better he is really nothing but a loser!!!
I'm not really sure why I'm posting think I know what I need to do, just I can't gather the courage, feeling so sad