I went to a solicitor today with my Mum and he advised that if DH and I were not going to get back together that we should divorce as soon as possible as it would be better to cut all legal and financial ties. He also worked out a very high maintainance figure (which I will probably not enforce as DH cannot afford it).
The big problems are a) DH went mad over maintainance figure and was panicking big time even though I said we would work out a more suitable figure b)my Mum made things 100 times worse by fighting my corner (although I appreciate it) and pointing out that I was only going to be working part time which only incensed DH further. I am trying to keep things calm and this didn't help.
C) DH is upset as he had decided he didn't want a divorce and wanted to attempt a reconcilliation after a few months, which I really don't want. D) I feel completely awful, a complete failure, a rubbish Mum that I don't earn at the moment and wish all this hurt could have been avoided.
Thing is DH and I had a frank chat last night and he said that he had done more wrong in the marriage than me and he knew I had tried to save the relationship, but I still feel incredibly guilty. Fell really rubbish!