He is suffering from depression, as well as low testosterone. He is tired, emotionally numb, and lost in his life. I'm heart broken watching him fall apart. I support him all i can, to the best of my abilities but i can't help feeling truly selfish! I just want the man i know and love back.
Low testosterone is being investigated with hospital. He has no sex drive, no lustful thoughts, doesn't wank etc. We have sex but i only feel this is to pacify me as i feel so rejected by him. I know the depression is not his fault, but i can't help but miss him, the real him.
I have an autistic daughter so looking after the 2 of them is quite draining. I will stick by him no matter what, but tonight am feeling sorry for myself. It feels like my life is on hold. I'm drained. He's a gorgeous, loving person but he is so wrapped up in himself i feel like i'm on my own. We're having couples counselling, but i don't think he gets it. He is always telling me he loves me & how i shouldn't have to look after him like a child.
Not expecting any replies, just needing to vent after a difficult day & a few glasses of wine!