Been feeling really low all day after sharp words with husband in the morning, then rain rain and more rain, didn't get out for a run, couldn't settle to work. Just low. Then I lost it completely with my son (aged 6) this evening. It's the constant drip drip drip of whining: 'It's not fair, she's got more than me, she's got more of this, she's got more of that…' It just tipped me over the edge and I totally lost the plot.
I feel like shit. DS has been having a rough week at school, he's lost a lot of confidence in doing things he can normally do so two of his teachers have spoken to me about it, and I've been trying and trying all week to do things that will boost him and help his self-esteem. And then I blow all the good work by being a bitch mum this evening.
That's it really. Just feel shit and haven't got anyone I can tell. DH doesn't do emotional stuff beyond patting me on the arm or saying well don't do it again. And I need to have a good old howl.