I posted before about my NY day break-up (him being the emotionally unavailable man). I went out Friday night and saw him for the first time since then. Hadn't had any contact at all for 3 weeks. I was very blase when I saw him. Just gave him a smile and said hi - turned away. (then turned to tequila for courage!). He later sought me out. Woke up and he was in my bed!
A friend of mine spoke to him that night and he told her he really likes me so much but after coming out of an 18 year relationship he is blowing hot and cold with his emotions and he doesn't want me to get hurt.
Weirdly I feel oddly fine about it all. I definitely don't want to be his F*k buddy but I feel oddly at peace with it all. Obviously I would like things to be different and for us to be together but that doesn't look like it's on the cards for us.
I did not expect that Friday day!