I have been seeing a man for about ten years now, our relationship started as just physical, sex. This went on for a year or two then I began to have a relationship with another man, the original one became angry, behaving as though we were a couple and I was being unfaithful to him even though it was clear we were no such thing.
So, after this relationship with the new man ended, the first bloke and I started doing things together like going to the cinema, eating out, watching dvds at my house, we became friends.
This developed into a loving relationship for a few months until he decided he 'can't do this any more', I was upset but got over it. Two weeks later he phoned me to apologise and things got back to how they had been but without the loving bit, just friends who have sex.
We have been like this for years and I really want to tell him to go get a girlfriend because I feel I am lacking something.
We don't kiss or hug, just sex. I am fed up of it but I feel sad and nervous at the idea of ending this thing even though I don't think it's good for me.
We spend time together a few times a week, he phones me most days, he likes me, I like him too but maybe not as much any more.
He came to get me to stay at his place last night but I came home soon after I got there, it just felt wrong, I think I feel taken for granted.
I have spoken to him about this once, he got stressed, didn't like me trying to make my point, and said 'we're ok aren't we?' and we are not.
We are both adults, I'm 46 and he's a bit older, feeling unable to communicate how I feel to him is ridiculous, as is being so damned compliant .
I'm sorry this is so long, I have no one to talk to about this, I need advice please.