Please don't be too hard on me. I'm sitting at work and I've already been crying this morning.
Brief history: been with bf 3.5 years. Overall good relationship. Ups and downs as most relationships do but mostly ok.
There had always been an issue with porn. He looks at it a lot - IMO it affects our sex life. But after crisis talks this time last yr - he said he'd limit it to when I was not home and he'd make an effort to have sex with me.
That was a yr ago - sex is roughly weekly and I'm far as I'm aware the porn is limited to me being out the house. He has messed up a few times - (he's looked on his phone) but we've dealt with it and moved on.
The two things that are going on this morning are this:- we had sex last night he looked at porn beforehand - and when we do do it the sex is boring - like he's doing me a favour.
It's evident to me he has a problem with porn but he would admit it - if he did I feel like we could move on and tackle the issue but I fear that isn't going to happen. I think I'm worth more I'm relatively young 26 he's 30 - mortgage together but no dc's.
I don't know what I want just people who have been there to there me on? x
[should have said above this morning I have approached a sex therapist for us, as a couple].