this is long sorry,
when I was two my mum tried to kill me, she crushed tablets in to my milk and put me to bed.
I was found by a neighbour, taken to hospital and stomach pumped. I was sent to live with my nan and mum to a hospital. All contact with me when stopped until I was seven, I was put in care when I was four/five and went through
to three different foster families and care homes until it came out my last foster family were abusing me, I was sent back to my nan house, when I was seven i was picked up from school by mum and told she had been given custody of me.
fast forward seven years mum is still mentaly abusive and I end up in care again but with contact on my terms. that was 12 years ago and am really struggling other half says I should have nothing do with her so do close friends I have spoken to, she is still unwell mentaly and can be quite nasty sometimes, I feel that everyone deserves a second chance and family should stick together you only get one mum etc but then feel I deserve better. my brother and sister both older were brought up by their dad and had lovely lives and only the last six years before in contact with my mum but the sun shines out their backside and can do on wrong. ever.. I am sick of fearing the phone ringing when I don't feel strong enough to listen to her having a go at me for not going down every day, God I'm so confused.