I've been with my DP for nearly 4 years. He's great with my DS from my previous marriage and overall we're pretty happy. We both work but money can be tight as the mortgage is high (bought at wrong time with ExH) and I have debt. He also has his own interests that he pursues and are important to him. I recognise and value that.
I've posted before about our conversations whether to try for a baby or not. This has been going on for a couple of years. We decided that we'd make a final decision by Christmas and at this point I feel that I would like to try but he doesn't want to. I don't know if I can get over this. Maybe time will help. Part of me feels that if I'd met someone else, I might have a more secure family and another child. I know this sounds awful and that's why I feel I can't speak to anyone in RL. This really is my last chance over as I've just turned 39. I feel that my choice is to get over it and get on but I'm worried about resentment building up towards him. Part of me want to end it with him and just focus on me and my DS. I don't know what to do, I just know I'm unhappy and feel unable to confide how I feel to anyone in RL. Thanks for reading.