No idea if anyone remembers the shitstorm I live in ... but I'm picking through it , don't bother to speak to my ( narcissistic ) mother much ... her dramas don't work anymore , my BGF's who were wrecking families , ones deleted me for not feeding her fantasy , the other respects me and doesn't try and force me to agree/support ... I'm ticking along ... largely alone . It's a strange time , no man , nor do I want one .. I feel lonely , but its like a process of maturation / evolution ... I'm alone with my self it's a strange time ... just thinking aloud really , as you were :)