I'm an idiot to have stayed as long as i have. All his endless promises to change have come to bugger all. He's a compulsive liar & I'm the fool who's had three children with him.
He'll lie about anything - big or small. He'll invent imaginary conversations he's had with mutual aqcuaintances in the full knowledge i'm only ever a hairs breadth away from finding out. Maybe that"s part of the thrill in deceiving me. He's taught our seven year old to lie to me almost flawlessly. He's a pillar of tthe community with a highly regarded job. My fucking toxic parents think the sun.shines out of his arse & i pretty much gave up trying to split up with him years ago when i realised they'd never support my decision. I have literally no one to unburden myself to - he saw off my friends years ago - he picked apart the male ones & made them seem 'unworthy' of me - of us. The female ones he did the same with or flirted outrageously with until they'd had enough. I don't honestly know what a healthy relarionship looks like.
Over the years i've also endured physical violence & sexual abuse from.him, althoigh not recntly. Basically i could have left, i should have, but i didnt. Our youngest is only weeks old so way i can leave right now. Wtf is wrong with me?
I've told hin to go countles times in the past. Hr says we can"t surcive financially apart. I'm always afraid of him breaking back in& hurting me or the kids. Seems easier & safer just to play along & keep him happy.