I can't believe he's done this again

[Loopylouu]

I want to leave but I've got no where to go. I go as far as going and sitting in the car and starting the engine. But then I didn't know what to do so I came back inside.

I posted a thread about dh last week (sorry I don't know how to find it and link to it) about how he was putting his parents first especially in regard to them visiting right after our baby, due in march is born.

Anyway, so tonight he got drunk and I've been subjected to a character assassination yet again. Questioned and quizzed on the PND I had after my older ds (he's not ds father).

It's not the diet time he's done this, now he's passed out asleep and I want to run away and I can't. I've got no one and no where to go.

And when I can back in from the car he started having a to at me saying I was running away instead of answering his questions. But I wanted to get out because I didn't feel safe. I'm scared I'm harming my baby by feeling this stressed, I wanted to get out of the situation. But I had to come back.

My ds is at his dads for the week so he's not here to see any of this.

I'm tired and I really don't feel well now but I can't tell him as he'll say I'm making it up because we argued.

I have no family or friends at all and I feel so trapped right now.

Hello Loopy

I am so sorry you are going through this but can't help I'm afraid.
Sending you a big cuddle and hope a wiser person is about.

Hiya hun, sorry i cant be of any help its a shame you dont know anyone local to help you out. Has he been violent ever? If so if that desperate to get out could you see if you can get som support from these charitys that are about?

Do you get on well with your sons dad? Would he help you out at all?

Try stay calm for now hopefully once hes sobured up he will be better nd maybe you could try discuss things, seems to be all sorts going on.

Thankyou. I know there is nothing anyone can say anyway. I'm just feeling really alone. I feel like I'm going mad and I can feel myself slipping into depression. I just wish I had somewhere, anywhere to go to.

Could you stay with someone temporarily? Parents, friends etc?
Perhaps just get through tonight and escape when you get a chance in the morning and stay in a B&B?
He sounds horrid and threatening. I hope you can get away x

I have no one. No family at all and no friends.

I called the travelodge etc but they were either booked up or not taking new guests at midnight.

He's not violent.

If hes not violent i would stay put for now, have you got any savings? Could you maybe try and find somewhere cheap to rent, have a bit of independance and space from him until you work through your problems

Can you call the Samaritans and see if they have suggestions of help?

I know I should sleep but I don't want to get I to bed next to him.

Ds has a high sleeper that I can't clamber up into (have spd) and awaiting new sofa so am sat on a bloody garden chair in the sitting room.

I don't know what to do for the best.

When I met him, he was an alcoholic. He didn't tell me that though and has never admitted it to himself.

I only saw him at weekends and yes, we'd go out to the pub, but that's what you do in a new relationship isn't it, go out together/with friends and have fun. I didn't I know he was also drinkig every day in the week too. I only found that out when we moved in together.

I wouldn't tollerate it around my so, so he begrudgingly cut down to every other weekend and in the holidays when ds is at his dads. Bu that was still excessive, so now it's once a week, but 9 times out of ten, he turns I to an utter bastard when he drinks.