I've had a very difficult relationship with my parents for many many years and they have had massive negative impact on my one child also . it's a long story but now dd is 21 and I feel very sad frustrated angry and lots of others things about how stupid I've been all these years to allow them to do what they have done its eating me up.
Every day for as long as i remember I feel bad or negative or sad or angry by something they have done and always because they are my parents I smile and let it go.
I need to make changes but am frightened and would really like to talk to a Councellor now .
Wo do you think I would benefit from talking to ?
I have a supportive husband and friends but I need to off load on someone professional iykwim .Im having quite bad panic attacks now when driving or when I have a lot going on . I know it's affecting me in other ways too and that I need to do something because I want to move on and I just can't .
Would I be best looking online for a private Councellor or who ?
I can't say money is no object as I am running quite tight with various things this year but I could pay as long as it wasn't say 40 a week every week .
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