name changed.
after sticking with husband five years ago after finding out about his prostitute visits and strip club nights out while i was 6 months pregnant, after putting up with his binge drinking which he refused to give up, after going part time and saying see you later to my career so i could take on all house responsibilities so he wouldn't have to, after relate counselling, after seeing him through sex addiction therapy and aa which he did not really commit to and did out of obligation, after feeling so lonely in a marriage where he was perfect to the world but behind doors he was polite detached and on his phone and out at the gym or with work, after feeling like one of his porn fantasy women in bed and feeling invisible, after feeling like something wasn't right but carrying on carrying the family, after seeing him look at, talk to and talk about other women with a glint in his eye while he looked at me as if i was a random stranger, after finally flipping out because he looked at me with disgust and said he didn't trust me even though he was the one with the credit card debts and private phone/email life, after all i forgave he told the world i was a psycho controlling woman, after asking to be forgiven he said i was unforgivable, after all the love i felt, after waiting to be his number one he tossed me to the side and said he was ready to leave and was so so cruel about it. i am crushed and broken but have to keep being strong for my kids. i am alone and devastated.