Borderline?

[candybarfallingstar]

I basically veer constantly between hating my husband and planning the divorce, to thinking I'll stay with him for an easy life, to thinking he's ok really, to loving him and wanting to make him happy.

I've read that bpd can be confusing for the sufferer as well as people close to them as they will switch rapidly from loving to needy to pushing people away. My feelings confuse me, and my husband very much.

I am currently being treated for depression, but still I am not great at relationship stuff, and I never really know how to 'be' with anyone but my oldest friends. I often mirror people, so they like me, but never really 'know' me.

Do you think it sounds like personality disorder stuff?

Im sorry I don't know but did not want to read and run.

Have you sought professional assessment, I would suggest given all you have said that it would be worth asking for, as cannot be nice for you or your hubby x

hello Candy

this is a link that shows the symptoms of BPD. www.mind.org.uk/information-support/types-of-mental-health-problems/borderline-personality-disorder/#.UrteZPu49cQ

From what you've said here, it's just not possible to tell. It sounds like you've got some conflicting emotions but - well, so do a heck of a lot of people. The range seems a bit extreme perhaps. It could be that there is something diagnosable but this is really where you need a skilled professional.

If you think it's a real possibility then I strongly urge you to get a professional opinion, probably if you can a psychiatrist. Self-diagnosing the wrong thing can really, really screw you up for quite a few reasons.

Good luck