B*stard Effin partner.. I can't trust him with anything - RANT!

[Mascaraohara]

As some of you probably know I was put on A/Ds about 4 weeks ago. I decided not to tell anyone except 'd'p. I've been telling anyone who's asked that I've just decided to stop drinking for a few months and he agreed that he wouldn't tell anybody (I'm very good friends with his sister and another girl)..

So anyway other girl gets in my car last night and says "what tablets are you taking?" "Are they anti depressants?"

Turns out his sister has not excepted my reason and (I feel) gone behind my back to ask him why I'm not drinking and he's told her I'm taking some tablets. So she's got straight on the phone with other girl gossiping and between them they've worked out that it must be A/Ds because it's been 4 weeks now.

Why can't I f*cking well trust him with anything, just brings the cocaine issue right back to slap me in the face again. Feel like calling it quits right now! Just when I've started trusting him again and thought he's behaving himself he rips the rug from under me and I realise I not only can I not trust him but I can't even confide in him. wanker. am furious. It's really pissed me off. AAAAAAARRRGGGGG!!!!

Oh God sweetheart, it was a very stupid thing to do, but was there any malice in it ??

More importantly are they working ?

No
and
Yes

In that order. It's just I can't trust him at all.. everytime I start he manages to f it up again. I'm kind of feeling know like what's the point planning to be with someone for the rest of my life if I can't even tell him stuff like "I'm on A/D's" without it getting round the whole village.

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I am cross with her but then 9 times out of 10 I am.

I can see I might be over reacting buit we had agreed what I was going to say so he could have just reiterated that. There have been lots of other things in the recent past, I'm forever catching him out by his friends dropping him in it by mistake. On Saturday I picked up his phone as he got a text and it was on the table his mate sat at the other end of teh table had sent a text saying "can you phone x" x is a local dealer.. now I thought dp hadn;t done anything for a while now but he had also told me that he didnt have x's number since x last got out of prison. Why would he have x's number if he hasn't done any coke since the beginning if this year??

I sould like a nut don't I! I probably am I think. It's all about trust rather than my friends finding out I'm on A/D's

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Oh yes there are deaeper issues, I posted on here a lot about the cocaine when it ws an issue but I thought it was all sorted, I thought he hadn't taken any since the beginning of this year.

I do feel like he's let me down and I'm pissed on with his sister for being such a snide cow.

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