Sorry this is going to be a rambling mess just need to vent.
Over the last 2 days have had a fight with my stbxh we still share a car as I don't have one but he told his girlfriend of 4/5mths that she could have it for a particular event that I was also going to and I was to walk to with my toddler while her car sat outside her house so she could give other people a lift, I told him how unhappy I was this but was told tough or to use her car (as if I would ).
I sat as far away from her at the event and didn't even acknowledge her, however she went home and told my stbxh that I had spent the whole time pointing and laughing at her and generally making her uncomfortable.
So I was to go shopping with my stbxsil we were car sharing and it turned out he was there too, we had an argument in the morning so I left them to it and ended up meeting later. I don't want to out myself but had to meet up as stay in a fairly remote place so needed the car to get home.
The stbxsil told him that I was going crazy and I should see a doctor as im losing the plot and saying he said things that he hadn't, he later admitted he had but I misinterpreted them.
I now have no-one to talk to , I was friend with stbxsil before I got together with exh who I had been with since I was 16 and am now mid thirties. I just feel I have wasted my whole life trusting these people for them all to stab me in the back,
I can't go no contact as we have 6 kids together and he keeps telling me that by being distant and not friendly i'm screwing them up,
I just don't know what to do anymore and sometimes wonder if they are right and i'm losing the plot.
don't need anyone to reply just needed to get it out .