I'm going through the after effects of a fairly messy break up of a 7 year relationship.
I'm finding evenings the worst. I have spent very few evenings alone in 7 years - either with my ex or with friends apart from maybe one or two nights a month, if that.
Now I see my friends a lot but obviously they have their own lives and its not healthy for me to be dependent on that, I need to learn to be content by myself.
But I just don't know what to do. I literially end up spending all night sat on facebook waiting for someone to come online to talk to and browsing on here and various forums, getting more and more miserable and lonely.
Apart from when we were out, we had a fairly fixed routine - make dinner together, eat dinner, snuggle up and watch telly til we fell asleep basically. I don't really watch much TV now, and I just seem to find it very hard to put the laptop down and pick up a book or switch the tv on ect. Its hard enough to motivate myself to shower most of the time!
Is it just a case of forcing myself to do something until it becomes my new normal or what?
I'm not the most mentally stable person and the relationship I was in ended up very over-dependent in many ways which is probably partly why I'm struggling so much.
I'd love to meet some new people too as I work on my own so there isn't really a lot of scope for meeting people - I'm not meaning as in meet someone for a new relationship, I need to take time out and learn to be happy by myself first, but just in general, but I can't think of what I would enjoy. I do have a hobby - I have horses so I do have a passion and a focus in my life but that doesn't fill the evenings, and lack of daylight in winter means Im home from the horses earlier which means the evenings are long.