Past experiences of child abuse - may be triggering for some people

[bigBum1]

Just checking if I can post details? I need to sort out a few things in my head, I have never spoken about this and I have no on in RL to turn to.

If it's too much I won't post, can someone let me know if it's ok to continue?

you are questioning if what happened to you as a child was sexual abuse. Yes it was. Please can I echo what other posters have said by saying this is a big thing, and you should seek specialist support and advice to help you with all your questions. I don't know what else to say, apart from that you sound like a really strong person who is a great mum to her son and a fab mum to your daughter.

On another note I hope your husband can be more supportive of your depression in the future, and is able to support you through this.

I just wanted to tell you how sorry I am for what you've been through. Yes, it was sexual abuse, and absolutely you should get some form of therapy or counseling to help you deal with all of your feelings. I had similar experiences as a child (although not perpetrated by my parents) and being pregnant brought many of those horrid feelings back.

Therapy was one of the best things I've ever done for myself, and I wish for you the same kind of healing.