Daydreaming

[AuntieBrenda]

Hi all - I posted before about feeling confused and muddled about my relationship with DH.
Things have been good since then - basically he's been trying with all the things that I felt unhappy about and I've been a lot nicer to him too.

The thing is now, I feel really weird and keep having day dreams about meeting someone new. About the excitement, dating all that and so on.

I feel upset with myself - if that makes sense - because I'm wondering whether this means I'm subconsciously 'checked out' of my marriage already IYSWIM.

We've been out a couple of times together in the lady fortnight. The first time I was a bit bored and tired (we have a non sleeping toddler at the moment) and we went to a gig the other night where I made an effort to be close to DH, holding him, letting him stand behind me hugging me during the gig etc but it didn't feel 'complete' I suppose.
I don't know, I feel cross with myself and a bit like a stupid teenage girl.
Anyone else felt like this?

Daydreams about meeting someone new could be because your life is not stimulating enough generally and you are enjoying a little fantasy escapism. Or it could be because whatever it was that made you choose your DH has gone or been damaged in some way - checking out, as you say. I don't know why you felt confused and muddled before. Has something specific happened to make you look at him in a different way? Are you just bored with the whole wife and mother deal? (A lot of people find that doesn't live up to the billing)