Lost and confused- help and handholding needed!!

[Evilwater]

Hello all, I'm writing to you from my parents spare bedroom.

p found out about me moving out, as the letting agency sent the draft copy to my house and he opened it. So Saturday night after I had finished a 12 hour shift I moved out. He took it much more better than I thought, of course he wants N, and he thinks he will get him as "I am always in the moon" his way of saying I'm not on this planet. Of course he brought up all my old mistakes from about 10 years ago, and not forgetting the classic! "I'm not strong enough to kill my self"

Yes, I took n with me and he is sleeping in a travel cot! next to this bed. He's taken it very well, and been a trooper.

p is now being very amicable, and asking about maintenance and furniture. I've changed my number, but somehow his texts have come to my new sim. I'm waiting on a guy to get the van so I can move my bigger stuff.

Emotionally, I want to cry and scream but I just feel tired and empty. I feel very vunable at times, and other times just empty. I want to cry but I have no tears.

I'm just at a lost of what the right thing is to do.

Evil

I don't know the backstory you refer to, but didn't want your thread to go unanswered. Why do you think you're weepy? Do you think you're having second thoughts? Or just tired and nervous about your new future?

'Tired and empty' could be stress, fatigue, depression... quite a few things actually. You're describing quite a traumatic exit and, once the adrenalin wears off, you can crash badly. Are you eating OK? Getting any sleep? Seen a doctor? I'm worried that a man nasty enough to dare you to kill yourself is managing to get messages through to a new phone number. Was/is he abusive? Have you had to involve the police at any stage?