It all feels like a chore

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I feel so guilty for feeling like most of my life is a chore. My dc are 6 and 9 and recently i have just felt that looking after them is a bit of a repetitive routine. Often i just want them to go to bed so i can sit down and not have to do anything for anyone. I love my family, dh is lovely and kind. He works hard and helps out with our dc. I work in a nursery 5 days a week and just look forward to weekends, but even then we don't really do much as money is a bit tight, etc. I am fed up of doing the cleaning, washing, cooking for it all to get dirty and need doing again the next day. Help me snap out of this silly self pity.

You sound like you're in a rut, to put it mildly. You don't mention any friends or hobbies in that list of things you do all week and it's very easy to feel you're just living your life for other people if all you do is work, home and kids. Also, 'cleaning, washing and cooking' should be shared tasks in a household of four. DCs of 6 and 9 are big enough to pitch in washing up and running the hoover round and DH can't use working hard as an excuse to do nothing. You also work hard.

I'd suggest you find some regular fun activity just for you... a book group for example.... and tell your family that Mum won't be available one night a week from now on because she'll be out there being a human being. They'll cope.

I know this feeling...