I don't post much under this nn except where there's a problem I need to vent. I posted in child mental health recently about DD1's violent behaviour towards me but not had a chance to respond as been down since a "friend" helpfully suggested she might be schizophrenic which is bullshit.
Anyway, have gone no contact so far with sexually suggestive/abusive F and self-obsessed Sis and B, about to go no contact with DM. I have been off work for two weeks (one due to stress related illness but told them flu and one due to AL). I am having panic attacks going back to work tomorrow as the shit that has been my life has well & truly hit me in the face. I have made excuses for my parents all my life as to why they treated me differently as my older brother died as a toddler while DM was pg with me in a tragic accident, hell I even let DSis with her crap as she was alive when it happened get away with NPD behaviour and DB as he was the next boy so obv my parents felt more protective of him but I have had enough of being treated like I'm stupid, dumb and worthless. I've had enough of my children being taught that I'm stupid, dumb and worthless which is what I believe to be the root cause of DD's behaviour (or at least picking up on my emotions due to it all and reacting to that through lack of security).
I just want to run away and dreading facing work tomorrow 