Why does no one bother?

[Lovevhate]

I am in bed and can't be bothered to get up. I am on holiday and have tried to arrange to meet various friends most of whom haven't bothered coming back to me. Just had an awful morning dealing with my game playing xh and now can't stop crying and can't get myself together. I feel so low. I like a nothing am not worth anyone's time. Self indulgent shit I know but have no one to talk to about this.

Sorry your friends have let you down. Did they know you were feeling particularly low when you asked to meet up? Of course you're worth people's time but maybe today is a day when the most constructive thing you can do is simply please yourself.

Thanks Cogito. None of them know I have been feeling down. I just don't understand why people don't reply when you take the time to contact them. I'm sick of doing the running. Today I will please myself like you say. This stuff runs deep and is quite complex. I drive myself crazy with all the crap this has happened to me over the years. I wish I could make it all go away but I can't.

are any of the friends any help? If so, focus energy & attention on them

do your favourite solitary activities

Julia yes there are a couple. They're busy today so won't bother them. I need to get myself going but just want to lie in bed. My dd will be home at lunch so that will be good. House is a tip. Can't be bothered.

I don't know where you are but it's half-term here and a lot of people have gone away for a break. If your friends don't know you're feeling down, they might have other plans and not be aware you need them to respond quickly.

I am sorry you feel low, either give in to it and rest up until you need to get up for DD coming back - soak in hot bath or get up, open a window, something to eat, bring it back to bed and snuggle up - or try and get out of the house. Drag yourself round the block. Are you in the town or country? Try and walk purposefully for a good half hour, buy a paper, get a coffee or look at the view. Then walk back home.

Honestly, fill the time this morning, it's half over. The crappy exh will still be around, the friends who are pre-occupied might still be out of touch but your DD needs you however old she is so you are certainly worth her time. Is DD home tomorrow, is she on half term? Book something to do with her tomorrow and the day after.

Do you often have feelings like this, is it worth seeing your GP?