I honestly don't know where to start.
I don't want to paint a horrible picture of my mum, she used to be amazing and I used to look up to her and see her as my role model. A single mum of 9 can't be easy but she always pulled through. The past 2 years she has got quite bad.. The youngest are 9 and twins age 6, I've always helped her with them, but it's got to the point where I do nearly everything for them. She works 2 hours in the morning and 2 hours at night which isn't the best as it means my younger brother 14 is left looking after the kids until she gets back from her night work, which means he spends every night at home instead of out with his friends.. My mum doesn't really appreciate it either she always comes home and finds something to complain about (I don't stay at home every night). When I'm home weekends she goes out, without the kids. One month she went out every weekend and left me with the kids.
Anyway she now has now started dating, she goes out most weekends dating. She found a man she likes (Its nice to see her happy) but every spare time she gets she goes and sees him. Its now the holidays and I'm behind on my coursework (last year of college) but I'm busy looking after my siblings because she's now out meeting the new man. The only plan she has with the kids is Friday for a couple of hours and that taking them out to see a friend. In the summer I spent nearly everyday with them and spent my OWN money taking them out. I asked her to come to the park with us to feed the ducks this weekend but she had "no petrol".. She then went out to meet her man in her car 2 hours later, I confronted her about this today and she said "I know I'm doing wrong" and then laughed and has just gone and met him again.
The thing is I'm 11 weeks pregnant and I'm high risk due to previous early and late losses. It's stressing me out, I'm normally a distinction student but since all this has started I can't even manage a pass. Me and my partner are looking at buying our own place away and it scares me because I don't know what will happen with the kids when I'm not around, it even scares my partner. It's gotten that bad that the kids tell my mum that me and my partner are their favourite and she's number two. I also have to do all there homework with them because "she doesn't have time". When we argue she always brings up how they are her kids, even though she's the one that always leaves me with them...
Sorry for it being so long.. What can I do? I have my own life and I don't feel like I can talk to her because she can me so immature when confronted! I'm desperate now... It needs sorting.