The Brave Babes Battle Bus - Kicking The *Wine Witch* Into Touch, Because Enough Is Enough!

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Hello, tis me, Mouse :)

This is a thread for those who are worried about their drinking habits towards alcohol, or/and drugs.

Even if you think that you are drinking more tonight than last night or this week than last, come and have a chat, find a seat, we don't bite!

We are a supportive Bus, full of very different posters, from various backgrounds. Some of us drink in moderation, allowing ourselves the odd glass or two as a treat, or just because we're in control of our drinking for that day.

One Day At A Time.

We have those who abstain completely, and those who wake every day to Day 1 and hope with all of their hearts that they can, and will, make it to Day 2.

If you've followed our journey to date, you'll know who most of us are by now :) and we kind of have two 'sayings', that sum up who we are -

1. • The Vulnerable Need Our Support, Not Our Judgement
2. • Alcohol Fosters Inertia

That said, we will not have any bashing of support groups, such as AA or Community Support Teams or even your own GP.

This Bus is a place for honesty, sanctuary and safety, something that has taken four years for a number of very special, very lovely, very honest and caring Babes to establish.

So, come find a seat, grab something warm from the supply cupboard at the back of the Bus as it's going to be cold tonight! Brrrr!

And, if you'd like to read back over some of our history, HERE IS THE LAST THREAD

And, HERE IS WHERE IT ALL BEGAN

We hope to meet you soon :) xxx

Great news mama make that 6 on 1
mouse a very wise post to annie I am holding onto that bright eyed bushy tailed reward.

5 on 1 oh the witch is struggling tonight !

Oh sorry I missed the last posts x

Mouse I am feeling better now and thank you for asking, it is much appreciated . I have eaten a huge roast, downloaded some new music and am heading into the evening in a much calmer state. Bloody hormones, I have had my children and I don't need or want them anymore!

How about you, is everything running relatively smoothly in the Mouse house?

Well done to all you babes taking on the WW, she doesn't stand a chance against that pile on

beaches so glad you are feeling calmer. Hope you have a lovely calm evening. xx

Thanks Rural, it will involve popcorn so looking promising! I hope you enjoy waking up refreshed

Morning Babes
Checking in Day 10 here. Monday here so no real fight to be had as it will be relatively easy after the week-end. I'm starting to feel my inner devil come back which is great. Fuck the WW. I'm going to be sober. And I'm going to be sober forever.

This is much nicer than waking up after a week-end of drinking and hiding bottles and wondering what happened and what I said etc. etc. Husband has gone to work and usually now I'd be checking all the hiding places to make sure I have removed all the bottles. Because I wouldn't even remember hiding them. I can't go back to that, and I know if I have one drink it's a very fast and slippery slope to that kind of behaviour.

Hope you're all having a good Sunday evening.
xxx

How great that you can post a positive Monday morning message to us all Soc when some babes might still be struggling with a Sunday evening. You are our very own crystal ball, a reminder of how great we can all feel when we wake up tomorrow

Morning soc, I almost welcome Mondays as it's so much easier to get in an af day :)

Rural I try to hold onto how much better I feel in the morning for not drinking. I'm not a morning person at the best of times but since doing a few af days I've realised just how much even one glass of wine effected me. When I drink I always feel like I need another hour in bed.

Mouse the odd thing is dh isn't really a big drinker, it was always me having the lions share of the bottle on a weekend. I suspect he is reminiscing about happier times and wine would be part and parcel of it. Although that could be me projecting. Plus he doesn't think I drink much so doesn't get why I want to cut right down, he'd never get how exhausted I was by that voice in my head

soc great to hear you sounding so positive.
have a lovely Monday. Looking forward to not having to search for empty bottles in the morning too.
Well Im in pjs and in bed now so ww lost here tonight.
So glad and thank you the WW Kicking six and all of the babesxx
Beaches Enjoy that popcorn, really fancy some now,

annie so know what you mean about that morning feeling. TBH I am a bit of an insomniac when A/F but am still not as grumpy in the morning as when I am drinking. Going to try to sleep now.
Goodnight babes, sleep wellxx

How long have you got to listen to life in the MouseHouse ?

There's lots going on. I've not been doing great pain wise. My acupuncture worked a little, for a while but I need ongoing sessions that just aren't possible time wise.

Nemo has been super at school but they get homework which is tough because he gets super tired. He's seen so many experts in the last 8weeks! It's been hard for him, meeting new Depts, new faces etc.......

He's eating a bit more, stronger and his speech is really coming on since starting school. I might just be a tiny bit proud of all he's coped with. Everyone is uber amazed that he's not freaked out the whole time.

He still has boundary issues and we have a new CAMHS and OT people coming before and after school.

Anywho, I find my eyes are closing as I type so shall bid you all a very safe, if not entirely, mythical 'Bus' and all who are aboard this wonderful Gerald.

Supplies are fully re-stocked, so no need to live on Opal Fruits anymore, unless of course you want to!

Night Brave Babes, xxx

PS - forgive any typos. I'm super tired xxx

Hello all of you Brave Babes

Day 7 here!
Not sure how many of us that makes having an AF Sunday (Monday for Soc) I've lost count!!!

Have a good sleep everyone. I'm just about to do the Drill.

Nite x

all the time in the world for you mouse. xx

Morning, tis me, Mouse :)

We have a very runny nosed Nemo here this morning, lost his first feed so I must dash as CAMHS will be here soon.

Happy Monday to you all xxx

Hello all - Delurking thanks Faire for shout out. Haven't been posting as nothing to contribute - have lapsed back into daily drinking. No big drama to report just habit crept up again and the putting off of breaking the cycle.

It's usually broken for me by gastritis but this time I seem to be tolerating wine okay - not a good thing as I like to have my internal brakes!

Seems I rely on it to be my off switch. Any road up, time to cut down again so day 1 for me here. Have a good day all x

Great to see you back green I keep falling off the bus and lapsing into daily drinking. Got through day 1 yesterday with a lot of help from the fabulous babes. We ganged up on the WW 6 OR 7 on 1 by the end of the night. She didn't stand a chance . I will join you in not drinking today.

mouse sorry Nemos not well hope all goes well today. Thanks for all your support and hope you find time to take a rest. Hugsxx
Isinde hope all is well with youx
Love to all, catch you later.

Dear little Nemo. It sounds as though he is deveoping with speech,eating and coping with lots of new situations. No wonder you are proud of him . Homework though is that really necessary? Seems very young to be worrying about that. Sorry to hear you can't fit in more accupuncture, any relief of pain must be a gift to you. it isnt always easy to find time to look after yourself and your life sounds busy. Wishing you a good day in the mouse house. [smilie]

Hi Green, Mondays make a good day 1. Keep posting later when it gets hard. Rural and her 'mob' have devised an effective group tackle! Good luck.

It is a holiday here, to mark Rememberance, so an extra headache free lie in. Love that!

Take care all of you.

Can I join you please? I've been on the bus briefly under a different name but never managed to stay around very long. I think I'm getting very close to rock bottom - I did something at the weekend that was so utterly disgusting that I can't bring myself to write it down even though I know nobody will judge me. I didn't get into a fight or shag anyone but it was just so gross and the worst thing was that it was in front of my 11 year old DD.I've been a heavy drinker for years but have always had a strict rule about not drinking until the kids are in bed but, for some reason, that's started to slip and it feels like things are spiralling out of control.
I read lots of threads in relationships about from people who grew up with alcoholic parents and how it's affected them and I absolutely don't want that for my children.
I've followed the bus from the beginning of the journey and been amazes at the struggles people have overcome and by the support from the Babes. I'm crying as I type this - I never imagined I'd turn into someone hiding bottles round the house and falling down the stairs.
I'm actually here to ask for something quite specific - I have some Antabuse which was prescribed ages ago and worked really well for about 2 months and then I sort of slipped into not taking it every day and then not at all. The penny really has dropped this time that I cannot drink at all and Antabuse is the only thing that's ever worked for me. DH drinks every night so there are always open bottles of gin and vodka in the house and I'm just not strong enough to resist that temptation. I don't know how any of you or some of you would feel abut encouraging me to take it each day? You can PM me if you want. Or is this a completely inappropriate thing to ask?
I'm not very good at asking for help and feel bad that I'm not really in a place to support others right now but I will if I can beat this fucking thing. Thanks for listening. PS I have taken a tablet today.

Welcome Andy. A very brave post, well done and I think you will find support here. I don't have any experience of Antabuse either but have read a little. I am happy to act as a reminder each day, is there a time of day that you take it, is it with food? I guess if you have taken one today that means tonight you won't drink. I also used to have an after the children went to bed rule which I was struggling to keep to, my eldest, at 11 didn't really want to go to bed at 8.30 but I could wait any longer than that so it was becoming an issue. I am ashamed to admit that I often wanted him to clear off earlier too so I could 'relax' properly. One of the many less noticable ways that it was effecting everything. Anyway, stay here and try and be kind to yourself first. X

isinde did you survive the MIL visit ok?

Ok, well 3 weeks is further than you had done in a long time. Your liver had a good rest, you saw that not drinking was ok, in fact it suited you well. You can do again babe . Xx

Well I have just demolished a big bag of Halloween sweets it was uneaten and just sat there,
Getting slightly worried I'm wanting to drink earlier each day
isinde 3 weeks is brill though well done for that

Isinde what beaches said, she beat me to it and said it so much better than I could. Never had a way with words, so very sorry babes for my verbal diarrhoea on here when I am battling the ww.
Sounds like there a few of us not drinking today so we should see the witch off no probs
You with us today Im?